Do you ever feel like it's the end and there is no possible thing in the whole world that would make you feel better about yourself?  Yeaaah.. Well this girl right here sure has. BUT, I eventually find the light at the end of the tunnel.  Like always. :) I have learned over the last couple of weeks that I need to just trust people.  I struggle with that a lot.  And, I have realized I need help on some things.  I hate asking for help... So,  with all of the other things I need to overcome, I am trying to push away my pride and ask.  YES! :D How wonderful.  Faith is a beautiful thing; it is vital to complete anything in life.  Watch the pieces fall into place.

Well that was easy...

What's that ring on your hand, you never take it off..  Is it your promise ring?  Do your parents make you wear it?  Is it the only ring you own?  Where did you get it?  Mmmmm.  YES, my CTR ring!! Wonderful missionary experience, wear a ring.  But that isn't the point.  This ring, this beautiful ring, means so much more.  It symbolizes what I stand for.  It is a reminder that I have the ability to choose the path in which I walk everyday.  It enables me to be better.  It is a token of hope and love.  It never leaves my finger.  It reminds me of the extreme love the the Lord has for me and how I have the ability to RETURN to Him. :) How wonderful.  How absolutely WONDERFUL!

The basics.

Geez.  OH geez.  Do you know how much I possibly love my family?  Not like, oh yeah they're cool.... I guess.  More like, holy junk, my family is the bomb. I have been blessed ten fold.  I not only have a beautiful mother who loves unconditionally and a father who I can call my hero, but I have a super extraordinary step-mom, 3 over the top gorgeous sisters, and 2 very protective brothers.  Why? Why does the Lord feel me adequate to have all of these wonderful personalities and people in my little old life?? AGAIN WITH THE QUESTIONS! I love them.  That is the end of the story.  I feel such great love and comfort knowing that I will be with them forever.  Not just until I die but FOREVER.  I just want to scream, OH GEEZ.  It makes me so happy. I don't understand why teenagers find the need to distance themselves from the central, most important thing in life. I guess I choose to be different. Not conform to society.  Yeah. That is me.  I guess I'll just let my light shine!  Life, is brilliant.  Family, is divine.  I, have been spiritually fed.  The Lord is helping me put the pieces of my puzzle together.  Sometimes I question what the heck I'm doing, but it always works.  Trust in Him!  Let Him guide you.  LET YOUR LIGHT SHINE! :)

Oh that Jesus...

Okay.  Let me just throw this out there.  I... am a day dreamer.  24/7.  And with all of this day dreaming, I often find myself asking questions.  Yes, most are stupid.  When we are all perfected, will dogs be able to see in color?  Do cockroaches know they are not liked?  Wouldn't the world be better if we could all go... naked?  Do people really NOT recognize how stupid their decisons are?  Is not telling someone you love them, when you feel the need, bad karma?  How can I grow to love my enemies?  Hmmm...  Are these questions even relevent to the determination of my eternities?  Probably not.  But, all of my many questions, can be answered.  Thats all that matters!  I have the ability to get through this short life, with the help from my Savior!  I can be healed through my Savior's Atonement.  Isn't it wonderful?  How we can come to know and love our Lord?  How we can be guided by him?  Isn't mind blowing how He will personally guide us with His OWN two hands?  Oh baby.  YES! YES! YES! :)
“As we live on earth we must walk in faith, nothing doubting. When the journey becomes seemingly unbearable, we can take comfort in the word of the Lord: ‘I have heard thy prayer, I have seen thy tears: behold I will heal thee’ (2 Kings 20:5). Some of the healing may take place in another world. We may never know why some things happen in this life. The reason for some of our suffering is known only to the Lord.”

A title?

I told myself, some months ago, I would start a blog when I finally filled my journal up.  Well, like most tasks...  My journal still sits on my desk, half full.  Sad day?  Not at all. I have decided to indulge, go against all of the odds, to finally have the best of both worlds.  I'm going to have myself a quaint little blog and a, somewhat personal, cute little journal.  Everything wonderful seems to be falling into place for a spirit filled, 16 year old, whole bunch of nobody, Florida girl.  I guess you could say, all of the pieces are starting to fit. :)