Let's talk about sex baby...

...let's talk about you and me!!!

I recently read a tiny little wordpress bloggy blog by my favorite Riley James. He is the very best. So much so that he wrote a cute little piece of literature by the title of "hell with the birds and the bees."

He talked about of how easy it is to rely on people because they are just a net.  To the twos of ya, you consider one another to be a safe haven... When in fact it is just a toxic relationship based off of a fear of moving on.

WELLLLL-- I know all to well this exact feeling.  I know what it is like to depend on people and to want to be around people just because it is the quick fix, the easy way out.  JOKES ON YOU SUCKER. I am SO done relying on people because it is easy and convenient.  Think about it, is that any fun? Nope. Not even a tiny bit.

Go out there and be adventurous.  There are people to see, places to go, love to be given.  I don't want to go through life only taking the easy road.  I want to challenge myself and experience all that it has to give.  Ya feelz? I want to meet people and show them so much love!  I want to travel and take an obscene amount of pictures.  I want to be HAPPY and not have regrets.

This life is a great one.  I am becoming who I want to become. COOL, right?


Let's be real

When I was in the great state of Utah, I realized that people have funny funny accents. Like what the heck are you even saying kind of accents.  Rather than saying the word real, they say rill. Exactly how it is spelled, rill. Let's be rill. Like, are you fuh rill? It gets a tiny bit uncomfortable sometimes.  A part of you wants to laugh at the and be like "what are you even speaking, cause it isn't English" and the other part is just so tickled by the new form of the word real that you end up saying it to.  Moral of this story, I find myself saying ril instead of real... #noshame

SOOOOO----- let's be ril for a second.

I need to tell you of something that has been on my mind as of late...

An overactive imagination. I have an overactive imagination.  That is what is on my mind.

I have the ability to come up with these really interesting intricate stories in my mind and I hate it!! Because, then I get my hopes up. Then I get angry... Then I fall away. Not really, but kind of.

How do you tame such a wild beast?  Like whoa dang Hannah's brain, calm down!!

With this overactive brain, it is hard to decide what is personal revelation and what is just my brain playing tricks on me... One day, I will find out. And when I do, it will be a glorious day.

UNTIL THAT DAY------

Elder crushes can suck it. 

Read this happiness. It's really just happiness. 


It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood!

"In 21 days, I will have waited over 17 months to see what happens with a certain idea, a certain bit of inspiration, a little bit of personal revelation if you must. Yes? I don't know if I'm ready though. I'm not. I know I'm not. 17 months ago I decided I want to be a certain person and act a certain way... 17 months ago I was pleading and begging the Father to let time go by quickly. Now as I sit here, I don't know if I really want this to end. This learning time that I've been experiencing.  I have grown up a whole bunch, my sarcasm is still in it's prime, but am I really prepared to embark on this new journey?"

I wrote this little snippet of life in October of 2012. BOY OH BOY-- have things changed or what? 

That Heavenly Father of ours sure does know the ways to my heart. He is the very best friend that anyone could have. I thought I knew exactly what I wanted 2 years ago. But, I didn't. I was just struck by love and wanted nothing more than to have someone love me. LAMMMMEEEE!!!! I don't need that! I don't need someone to say "Oh, Hannah, you are just so hot and I love you and it's not just because you have big boobs, I swear..." But, like any hormonal 16-17 year old, that is what I wanted.

Gag me with a spoon.

I am grateful that Heavenly Father has a plan. I've been talking about that plan a whole bunch lately... I think it's because I'm finally starting to REALLY REALLY REALLY realize that everything that the Father wants to happen, will in fact happen. It is just up to me to be ready, worthy and willing to accept His plan.

I swear I'm not just referring to being madly in love with a smokin hot babe of a man who is a worthy priesthood holder and loves snuggles and sushi as much as me... I'm just talking about the man that will be my very best friend for eternities, the man that loves Christ and His restored church more than physically possible and the man that loves me for the beautiful daughter of God that I am.

I can wait for that. I am okay with waiting.

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood, friends!

"With God on our side we cannot fail... we will be VICTORIOUS!"


...he could be a sinner, or a gentleman

| APRIL |

You were a good one to me Miss April. I had so much fun getting to experience you :) John turned 13. Sam turned 41. I finished up my second semester of school. I got my hair professionally did. I dissected a pig. I had just had fun. SO MUCH FUN!

Hi Bud. Thanks for being such a gem. This little man is such a beautiful soul :) The fun we had together is just fantastic. Worthy priesthood holders make my heart so so happy. Thank you Bud Mogli Pope for serving a mission. AND SISTER ESPLIN. Thanks for letting me get to love her too. 

Oink Oink Oink. This is Wilburita. I ripped her digestive/urinary/reproductive systems out. It was such a joy. 

SELFIES4DAYS

Did you know there is such day as Assistant's Day? WELL, YES! I am grateful for my job. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn.  I am grateful for the sweetest officemates who support me and love me even though I'm 20 years younger than them :) 

Got my hair done professionally :) 
It's all blonde. 
It's so cute.
Flowy locks of hair. 


*MAY*
Tyler was set a part as a missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. He is to serve the people in the California, Bakersfield Mission.  

He came home for medical reasons, he'll be back out in 6 months. 

Waking up at 3:30 to take your BFF off to the airport is what you do when you love them and the gospel.  Tyty, I do love you SO MUCH. You and I hate each other a majority of the time but its the best type of hate. Thank you for being such a strong example. I love you bunches baby :) 


Oh. I turned 19. This is the delicious piece of cookie skillet that comes from Chili's. DELICIOUS.

I just like my daddy. Isn't he a funny one? Can you tell where I get my good looks from? 

My best friend Haylee Grace got her mission call. What a beautiful experience to watch her learn and grow and now serve a mission in the Idaho, Pocatello Mission Spanish speaking.  I can't wait to see the success she has. 

May is always my favorite month of the year. I think I am partial because of my birthday. Hehehe :) Not very many pictures but it was fantastic. 


JUNE

School got out.  We were thrift storing. I told him I would only give him a quarter for his bubblegum if he took a picture with me.  Don't you love him? I love him. My teddybear. 

Father's Day picture 2014. We make the same faces... It makes me laugh a lot! Healer Jim is the shiz.

Every Wednesday I get to hang out with this beauty. Jarom you light up my whole life. If you ever want to laugh a whole lot... hang out with this sexy man! OW OW OW!!!

**He serenades me to this song: City and Colour - The Girl**


!UTAH!
Once upon a time my BFF Mike told me he was getting married, remember that happened in March :) Well, I was planning on coming out to the great state for the reception but life happened and I didn't have the money for it... Sad day, right? No. That man and his family provided a way for me to come out there and spend the week in the land of the people. HOOZAH! 5 whole days of happiness. Here are just a few of the happy moments. 

Randie picked me up.  WHAT A HAPPY DAY! The first familiar face I see coming out to Utah. The only face I needed to see. She is mi soul skista. 

MY BOO THANG IS BETTER THAN YOUR BOO THANG. 

Lauren shellaced me. She is a good shellacer. Wanna have some shellac on your nails? 

Hannah, Lauren and Nathan. The three best friends that anyone could have. 

FINALLY meeting the Whippy. What a doll. Oh hey Scott. 
SCOTT AND THE WHIP ARE GONNA GET MARRIED!!! 
I hope :) 

The whole reason I came to the great state of love. Mike and Cindy Pelo :) 
How beautiful are they? The most beautiful.  I have never met a couple that is so grounded in the gospel, so in love, so passionate, so absolutely precious! Thank you for allowing me a tiny glance into your life Mr. and Mrs. Pelo. I love you both to forever :) 

Big Girl Lovin 904, Big Lovin 909 and Big Girl Lovin 801. BGL4LYFE. 

Provo, Utah at night time. Thank you for such a beautiful view. 
#801ordie

Thanks for snuggles Naphy. 

Dani-Girl is a betty and a half. 

The Osborn family is the cutest family ever! Nice smile Trav. I love your belly Sista Kitch. 

DigBum and Cupcake. 

Momma Pelo. Oh you are a lady. Thank you for loving me and accepting me into your family. I look up to you more than you could ever imagine. I love you Momma! 

Cindy, Mike and Hannah. We're his main chicks... Hahahaha! 

Miss Cindy is a beauty. She has such a spirit to her. The most beautiful spirit. 

THEN: I come home to go to lunch with Samuel Commander and my favorite Elda Fway-shuh (Elder Frazier) Sushi dates with the missionaries are the most fun! 

:::2014:::

So far 2014 has been a wonderful year--

I have loved, lost, cried, laughed, started anew, ended some chapters, battled a few addictions, fought a tiny bit, realized my potential, struggled with pride, humbled myself, fell in love, fell out of love, realized it wasn't love, slept too much, didn't sleep enough, got into trouble at work, been appreciated, sent some letters, received some packages... 

I have been so blessed. God has given me such amazing opportunities this year.  Oh happy day. 

Want to know what the title of this blog is? 

HERE YOU GO!!!



Until so soon bloggy, I love you to pieces!! 

Good morning starshine, the earth says hello!

BLOG! You beautiful beautiful masterpiece, YOU!!! I have missed you so tremendously. Let's not ever split up again, okay? GOOD!

Holy heck. It has been a long 218 days since our last encounter.... 7 months and 7 whole days. WOWZERS.

Do I even need to tell you about what has been going on? Or should we just start anew? I have no idea where to even begin!!! AHHHHH!! NEVER EVER AGAIN WILL WE DO THIS TO ONE ANOTHER.

I will make it simple. I will bring up pictures from the last seven months for your viewing pleasures ;)

Welcome to the blog, Mr. December!

DECEMBER
We just went out to dinner... Nothing special. I just love how handsome this little fella is. God blessed me too much when he gave me Johnboy. 

My hittas, my hittas. We like to go to Friendship fountain when we have nothing better to do. Corri and Sophia-- ILikeThem.

#selfiegamestrong

My favorite best friend came all the way from Utah for me... At least I like to think so. Look at that babe mid stride. OW OW OW!!

Sunrise Christmas morning with the very best lady known to man. 


Well hey there Christmas 2013 at the cabin.
Krysti, Hannah, Mandy and Jimi--We make our parents so proud. SO proud.

December was such a fun month.  I finished my first semester of college, I got to see my very best friend for the first time in over a year, I anticipated the start of my new job, I realized that I hate wine (I drank a glass thinking I was cool... I wash't), I laughed a lot, I cried more than I laughed. It was good to me. 


JANUARY

A hard month you were January.  Emotions, tension, stress, happiness, depression, excitement... So many emotions encompassed the month of January. 

Oh, Uncle Deb. You were the very best aunt that anyone could ever ask for.  This here, ladies and gents, is a woman that I love with every fiber of my being.  We found out in early November that Aunt Debbie had stage four lung cancer, needless to say, it was rough.  Two months is what we had with her before she left this mortal life for the journey beyond the veil.

This is the last picture I have with my Aunt/Uncle Deb. I wouldn't have chose any other place to be. 

**It was clear at this point that there was only hours left before Aunt Debbie's spirit left her body. Everyone was getting ready to sleep.  It was Kim, Jim, Bub, Toni, Aunt Roxi, Toni's mom and myself.  As everyone was getting beds, blankets, pillows and other things for the evening, I stepped out to call my mom.  I was only gone for about 3 minutes when I could hear someone yell my name.  As I ran down the hospice hallway to see who was yelling, I knew what was happening.  Toni's mom ushered me back into the room where everyone was standing over Deb.  Why had she waited until I left the room to pass? What a lady.**


Happier news, I got an autographed paper towel from Wayne Sermon from Imagine Dragons... THANK YOU DANI-GIRL! What an exciting piece of mail.

I fell in love with these handsome elders. Me gusts tu cara, mucho! Jk. BFF4LYFE.

Obligatory first day of work selfie :) 
I work for the State of Florida in the Agency for Persons with Disabilities.  
The BEST job that any kid my age could have!!

Do you see what I mean, now? Aunt Debbie died on the third of January and I started work on the thirty-first of January.  It started terribly sad but ended fantastically. 

PS- Thank you Lauren. You are a gem. Perhaps my saving grace for the month of January.


FEBRUARY
Nothing lovely happened in the month of February... Even though it was the month of love. Except this picture. This picture is GR8. I got so terribly sick and broke a whole bunch of tiny blood vessels all over my face.  I couldn't open my eyes much.  I slept for a solid 30 something hours. Somehow I did something to my neck. But come on... DO I LOOK HAWT?! 
SOOPER DOOPER SEXY. 



MARCH
I just really like how short Sister Dispain is... The missionaries are great. 
www.mormon.org

OW OW OW!!! I started wearing tight skinny jeans. Why? Because, I can!!!! If you know me, you know I hate pants. But, I was feeling feisty and decided to wear these bad boys. I love them! I wear them all of the time now! 

I hate lip kisses. But man... I love my mommy. 
Why is my face so flat? Hahaha.

Mikeyboy came to see his BFF in March. ME! It was the very best to see this cutie. And it's even better when he calls you a week after this to tell you he is engaged!!! HOOOZAH!

"Why so serious?"

SOOOO MUCHHH WRITINGGG!!! This has been fun. December, January, February and March you are done. April, May, June... I'll be back for you :)

I am grateful for this bloggy. I am grateful that there are so many ways for us to preserve our past.  This is just one of the ways that I like to preserve mine.  Happy happy joy joy! 

See you SO soon :)